Bed Etiquette

Ok so maybe I was a little wrong about Com Sci Guy. Turns out he's not moving to LA till the middle of July. Things are getting better but not sure what yet. I wasn't feeling so great so he came over last night. All I really wanted to do was sleep next to him. I usually can't sleep next to someone but I can with him. It's nice to be able to fall asleep next to someone and not feeling like you were annoyed all night with the person next to you. LOL In the morning, we messed around in bed and later in the shower. By then I was running hella late and he took me to work. very sweet and we made out right at the door to my office. Hope no one saw :D Am I getting in over my head?

I was talking to some friends the other day about sleeping arrangements when dating a guy. And we thought that you could tell how someone might be as a person as to how they sleep with someone else. Douches can be douches even in their sleep. LOL
For instance, One guy hogged my bed to the point where I would be at the fucking edge of the bed. I have a queen size bed so there should be plenty of room. Later I realized he was too self centered. And him taking my bed made sense.

There was another guy who would constantly want to cuddle even in sleep mode. It was like he just wanted to be touching the whole time. I'm the type of person who loves a cool bed to get into and warm it up myself. I like to sleep in the cold. It's relaxing and soothing. But if someone is going to cuddle with me ALL night, I'm going to get hot and just uncomf. He was too clingy and overbearing in reality and I couldn't deal.

Then there's the instance where a guy doesn't even seem like he wants to touch you before drifting off to sleep and they stick to their side of the bed and you yours. If that's what's happening, it might just mean he's just not into me and there's no need to even have them sleep over. Granted it could just be a sex/physical thing and that's it. But then sleeping over wouldn't even need to be brought up.

But dater x, what about just preferences when you're sleeping? Can't someone just have a certain way of sleeping? Yea, I totally think so. And maybe someone has slept too long alone to realize that even while sleeping there's an etiquette to it. This goes for guys and girls.

Just Good.

I got together with Com Sci Guy over the weekend. After the first time, I still felt drawn to him so when he wanted to hang out, I didn't see a reason not to. He picked me up from my place and went to get Korean food YUM! It was chill. I recommended some food for him to try since I love Korean food. We talked and got to know more about him. Last time he said he was a vegetarian and I didn't think anything of it. But while we were eating, he mentioned to me that he was Buddhist. Ohhhhh. It made more sense but then it didn't. How many White guys who grew up in Jersey do you know who are Buddhist? LOL He told me a little about how he got into it, but I didn't really pay much attention. I think I was off in my own little world about why he was attracted to Buddhism and I was hoping it wasn't an "Asian" thing. Because too many times will I hear it from White guys trying to be "Asian" and impress us Asian girls. BLAH

After Korean food, we went to go get some bubble tea and walk around Seattle. It was a gorgeous day and I just wanted to be outside. Strangely enough, we were hand and hand most of the time. I normally don't like PDA and sheer away from it. It's not something that I normally do. Maybe it was the setting of the day. A beautiful summer day in Seattle could make even me feel slightly romantic.

We were close to his place by this time, so he invites me to go over. His roommates were moving out so there was crap everywhere. But it was a typical guy place so it didn't phase me. I have seen and dealt with much worse. There were some Buddhas in his room. And I think I saw some prayer beads so I guess it was the real deal. It slightly irked me, not sure why but it did. I felt slightly guilty thinking this way, but it's how I felt. The plan was to watch some movies on his computer but that did not happen. Instead, we started kissing and clothes came off once again. It's like I can't control myself around him when it comes to sex. ;) We ended up doing it three times. It was hot and sweaty and completely satisfying. And ALL with separate condoms. We learned from the mistake last time.

By 10:30, CS Guy took me back to my place. I asked him to come in and we ended up doing it three more times with sleep and cuddling in between. I don't think I've had that much sex in that short amount of time. I wished I could have gone until I was completely exhausted to just see what it was like. But I think he was drained, literally. In what was considered the morning, out of condoms and completely hungry, we got up and went to get some food. It was again a beautiful day and we walked down the sidewalk holding hands to the restaurant. He then dropped me off at my place and we said goodbye.

This whole time hanging out with him, it was fairly good. The sex was definitely good to keep doing it that much. I wasn't really bothered by the hand holding and the cuddling. The Buddhist thing? I'll get over it and my suspicion of a Yellow Fever (maybe, not a promise). So every thing was good. Yup. Good..... So why do I feel kinda indifferent if we see one another again? I mean, it would be cool to see him again, but I really don't care. Some may argue that I actually like him and blah blah. But really, it's not necessary. Maybe I got my fill of romance and need something else now. I didn't detest his company and I had a good time. I guess good is what it is, good. What if I wanted something fiery and exciting with fireworks? Who knows, but Saturday is July Fourth.

Plan B

I met Computer Science Guy (CS) a few months ago through CL. He had responded to an ad I made, but we had never met in person. It was only a few flirty emails or chats here and there. I knew he was really busy b/c he was getting his Masters in Computer Science so I thought that I was just an innocent flirtation to pass the time while he was finishing up the spring quarter.

Last night he and I made plans to meet up. I was supposed to meet him at a bar to get some drinks but I was having car issues so I couldn't get out there. I called him up to tell him about my car. I think he thought I was trying to cancel. I really wasn't but if he wanted to back out, the time was then and I wouldn't have really cared. I would have been happy with just going to bed early.

CS decided to come over and get me at my place. I didn't care that much that he knew where I lived. I didn't get a creepy/stalker/psycho vibe from him. We went to a brewery near to where I live and got some dinner. We talked and got to know one another a little better. Things seemed to be going well. There were moments where he would just look at me. I didn't know if I had something on my face or just looking at the view. But I think it was the latter. LOL I admit, it was cute.

He took me home and I invited him inside. We went into my room to watch some tv and just chill. My roommate and his gf were in the living room and I didn't want to do the whole introducing thing. We were sitting on my bed watching tv and he leaned in to kiss me. He's a good kisser, but he had some stubble on his face and it was really really scratchy. I had to deal.

Later things got more intense. Clothes were coming off and it was hot. I also had a lot of pent up sexual frustration so I was getting more into the moment. We started to have sex and it was pretty good. He was one of those guys who likes to kiss while having sex. Personally, I think both actions are slightly awkward to do but it was fine. As he was finished, I felt something wrong. I knew the condom broke. I told him what I thought and I was right. I went to the shower hoping that I could wash it away LOL but I knew I had to go to the pharm in the morning.

With most people, I would have wanted them to leave right away after this. But for some reason, I didn't want him to go. Instead, we cuddled and messed around some more. I felt so comfortable and strangely safe around him. So we ended up having sex two more times last night, but he did the pull out method. (I know totally unsafe on all accounts. You can scorn me now. I deserve it.) I don't know what came over me. We ended up cuddling and then falling asleep. I then wake up suddenly to a bloody nose. No, he didn't punch me. My allergies have been really bad but it was annoying.

I woke up this morning to me still wanting to cuddle with him so I moved closer. I think he was awake and wrapped his arms around me. Normally, I would have wanted a guy not cuddle with me. But this morning, it was nice to wake up next to someone. We ended up having sex again. Morning sex can be fun or awkward and thankfully this one was fun. I then got up, showered and got ready for work.

As we were leaving my place, I told him I would go to the pham during my lunch break. He surprised me and took out his wallet to give me some money to go to the pharm. He felt really bad about the condom that broke and then all the unprotected sex afterwards that he offered to pay for Plan B and reassured me that he didn't have any STDs. I hope he doesn't but the gesture to pay was sweet. I told him he didn't need to, but he put the money in my hand and we walked out the door.

Overall, meeting CS wasn't a bad thing. He's super sweet and I could honestly say I could see myself with a guy like him down the road. But here's the catch, he's moving to Los Angeles for an internship/job he got through his Masters program. So I don't see that working out. But maybe we will see one another again before he leave. I'm extremely tired and rightfully so. But I have to head off to the pharm to get Plan B.

Awkward Moment

Got home from hanging out with SK. I walk up the stairs to the kitchen to get some water. I didn't see my roommate's light on from the road so I thought he and his gf were sleeping. As I fill my glass, I hear my roommate's voice. I stop the water to then hear his gf moan. Whoops!

They were having sex.

I quickly filled my glass of water and went back downstairs to my room.

I admit, I'm a little jealous that I'm not having sex tonight. Hmph!

Flashing, Lights!

My photoshoot was scheduled for this morning at 9. I woke up anxious and excited at the same time. I have been teetering on the fence whether or not this interview and photoshoot was a good idea. In the end I took the risk and jumped off the edge. We'll see if I have a parachute or not in the following months I suppose.

I got to the studio for the shoot. I was really hoping that everyone would be nice and cheerful. If not, I think I wouldn't have been comf at all. Thankfully everyone was great. They were incredibly nice and creative. I had lots of fun. And it in no way reminded me of a senior graduation photoshoot where you're leaning against pillars and trees. LOL There were moments where all I could think about was all the ANTM seasons I have seen; smile with your eyes, knowing your angles, "ugly" pretty. It was all in my head and I kept wondering if I was doing an ok job. I think it went well and hopefully I don't look ugly (haha) but I guess I have to wait till the photo editors pick the pictures.

Overall, all of this has been very overwhelming. I think it's come to a point where nothing has really settled into my mind. In a few months, people can have access to my blog. People will see a photo of me and put a face to the author of dater x. When thinking about it like that, it makes me uneasy. But only time will tell, right?

Some know about the upcoming article and photoshoot today. And really, I can't help but regret telling more people than I should have. Yea, this is def an experience to want to talk about and I think I was just wanting to tell people out loud about it instead of writing it. But I don't think I'm ready to talk about my blog to people in real life or rather, people in my life. Whether they are proud of me for putting myself out there and letting the world to read, I'm still terrified for what's yet to come.

Just for a little bit, let's not mention it. I need time to decompress from the whole thing. I promise when the article comes out I'll let you know. But until then, not a word.



Here's a shot I took with my phone. All you can see are many many headshots of me. LOL

Dater X, Revealed?

I decided to do the interview. I went back and forth for a while trying to decide if I should or should not do an interview. If I do it, I lose my mystery and anonymity. If I don't I could miss out on a great opportunity to have more people read the blog.

A friend asked me what I wanted out of the blog and where do I see it going. I never really thought about it in that sense. I just write because I like to do it. If others like it, then great. But I hadn't thought much about the next step. Is this it?

Long story short, I decided to do the interview. I'm not going to say what magazine it is. But I will let everyone know when it comes out. I did a phone interview this past Wednesday over the phone and I have the photoshoot this Monday. I'm nervous because I don't want to look ugly LOL but I don't think I will. The photoshoot will go fine, it's the aftermath of the article I'm a little nervous about.

I can't really talk to many people about it either. I still want to remain anon for a little longer. Granted when the article comes out, everyone will be asking about the blog, wanting to know about my sex life, my date life, everything. I just am not ready to deal yet. And I don't think people understand. People only see the fame and glamourousness of it all (esp the photoshoot). But I made my decision and it's just a risk I have to take. No backing out now.

Please wish me luck and I hope I'm making the right decision.



P.S. That's not me. But I wish it was LOL

Just a Make Out Session

I was driving home from a friend's house and I had an impulse to call Architecture Guy. He and I have been playing tag and I was pretty certain that he wouldn't answer. Surprisingly, he answered.

AG: Hello?
Me: Can I come over? I'm like five minutes away.
AG: Ok.

I parked my car and walked to his apartment. I had only been there a couple times, but each time was for the same thing. We would say hi, ask how each one is, look at one another and then make out for the next 30+ minutes. It all went according to routine. The kissing was intense and forceful. I pulled him into me and I could feel the weight of him on top of me. We grinded against one another until I actually came from being so turned on. Unforch, we didn't have sex. And there was a moment where I think I was begging for it. I don't know if we will ever seal the deal in that department, but, God it's fun trying LOL

Meeting up with AG is always a trying time for my sexual frustrations. He pulls away right at the moment when I want it most. What gives? But this time I didn't care. It was satisfying and passionate.