The Other Other Girl

I couldn't help it and ended up texting E one night. It was a pretty blunt and to the point.

Let's have sex!

We had agreed to be friends the last time we saw one another. He mentioned how he was still attracted to me and that hadn't changed even if we broke things off. So in my weak state, I knew if I suggested sex he would want to.

And he did.

What followed were texts and IMs filled with sexual innuendos and temptations. I knew it probably wasn't the smartest thing to suggest. But man, I just wanted to get fucked. Don't you ever feel like you just need to have that fulfilled? And it was my logic that I would rather do it with someone I had been involved with before than with a stranger on CL. Granted, it's questionable whether or not I should have suggested this to someone who I had feelings for. But hey, what's done is done.

There's just one thing. When we talked about the possibility to getting together, he mentioned he was dating someone exclusively. It's actually the girl he picked instead of me. So on one hand, I didn't want her to get hurt. But on the other, I wanted to know if E and I had chemistry still. I felt there was something.

So we came over with the premise that I would cook dinner. I actually had a lot of food that was going to go bad. And I have wanting to cook more at home, so it was a win win. And I love cooking for other people.

Dinner was good. He seemed to really enjoy it and complimented me on my coking skills. I put the dishes into the dishwasher and cleaned the kitchen. Immediately after I sat down next to him, he and I were kissing and groping one another. The chemistry was still there, or at least the lust was. I forgot how much he knew me and what turned me on.

Things quickly moved to the bedroom. All of this was strangely familiar and in the heat of the moment, it felt amazing. The sex was very good, like back arching grabbing the sheets good. And he even wanted to cuddle afterwards.

We continued to talk and his dating status came up. I don't think I expected him to say "I want to be with you and not her" but I did wonder what he was thinking about what had just transpired. I came to the conclusion that he's going to continue seeing her and wants to keep me on the "side."

Now, I am no stranger to being the "other" girl. But I did not know about it going into the situation. I found out after the fact or decided to end things. I even had someone's wife call me once. I had NO idea this guy was married, but his wife ended up getting my number. But that's another story.

So here I am contemplating things. I know in Lifetime movies or any other drama the other girl is the bad person, but what if she was the other girl to me first?