Self Destruct

I've been on a self destructive binge. Not sure what was the catalyst, but it's become more of a constant thing for the past week or two.... I've tried to semi-explain things to my friends, but no one really seems to understand the feeling.

Been in text as of late with long time blogger, friend and confidant. It seems he's the only person who can fully get it. And perhaps that's what I want. Just for someone to get it. No pressure, no explaining. So for that, I'm grateful.

As for now, I'm about to get ready for a post-holiday party inspired by the classic movie, Party Monster. If you don't know what it is, look it up. And I just realized how fitting this party is with my decisions for the moment. Ha.